Wednesday, September 13, 2006
ready? Lets roll.
Ok, to quit the niang niang qiang talk. Let's get to the point.
Ive tried certain ways to bring this to u, but ure somehow, unreachable. Unable to meet u on sunday either, thus i shall just blog this down.
So miss stupid float. Now that we are young adults and that we hav graduated from primary school 6 years ago, communication shuld be much mature liao right.
Good.
lets admit it, that day was fucking boring. For u, for me. SAME. LMAO! Boring events dun bring people together. ok maybe except tt food place we went wif xz they all. If u feel the awarkard feeling originated cos we were once besties, thats bullshit. Its the vast differences thats happening in our lives and i swore i felt everything is on the downhill. I felt so strongly things were gona end and its merely jus impossible then.
So yea, i was gladly agreeing on a time out.
I can eat all my words now, cos it started to hit me real hard right in the middle of my face, making my ever 2D nose even flatter.
I started to miss u really bad float. Never wuld i expect the fast ride and change to my 'throne' until 'he' came along. Ima ass. I admit. Cos i took it lightly intially. Fuck it became a god damn mistake.
Then i pondered where did i go wrong. Infuriated cos i tot ure fickle.
Until i saw wad 'he' has done, i seriously sunk. Dumbfounded actually. In such a short time even. Yet i culdt think of single god forsaken incident to make u feel im worthy instead. Cringe for all i want, and for that, i wana apologize.
For im now no different from all the other male 'fishes' whom swam up and got grab, glanced, dumped and thrashed by you. lols
And, i really hate to say this cos i swear it goes against my nature. But i felt theres no longer time or space for hidden feelings, lets not even go on for ego.
Im scared. I feared most of being placed at the threshold of no redemtion yet im afraid of asking for more.
So i did thought of showing u how much u actually meant. But wrong place wrong time, or maybe, time isnt even there anymore. It seems to me tt my dear lady luck and chances are no longer on my side anymore. Yes, jus ask me once more and i'd say i regret it when i had it in my grasp. Very much.
But like i said, we're grown ups. Or we presume to be. HAHAHA.
Bitch i wont persuade u any further cos u hav ur right to choose, but allow me to deny ur feelings on how much u mean to me den him or maybe, as before.
We know this might be it, i guess pretty flowers dun always blossom. Maybe we're better of where we started off from, when cursing wont make us flinch. I felt that way too. But u know clearly thats not wad im out for.
Sooo, logically, before i make any other decisions and regret anymore.
I love you **l. (dun nid everyone to come asking me since when, u'd understand.)
bring everything down once more and lets see how it goes. inform me if its possible.
to put a line for the emo part of this entry, im sorry tpf for all the shit i put u thru. i truely am. So dun work on saturday luh, u dun take rejection one right? go out wif me la. HAHAHAHA, Cjade on me la can =.=""
OMG, SHAHRIN BIG FOOT KATONG SHYFOOL. ps didnt pick up ur calls. IVE PASSED TOO!
CHEERS!!!!
hurhurhur, say i smart quick.
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And erm, lastly, OK 91 and OE 86 didnt roll. BUT I DID. HAHAHAHA, say i smart again quick!! omg. too cool luh, right right right! and af i dun tink im going for the camp la. we shall see how can. If u ever fall into this blog anytime soon. the SQ. lols.
ok, and, JS AND FUCKING ADIT got to go night sortie. @$*@$(
=((
thats all for tonight. im out.
Cheers my loves.
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